lorigore

i guess it took a death to put us in the same room together.

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 19:45:45 GMT

and i realize that i really really reallly do miss you.. but i dont regret anything that happened :\

may 22

Fri, 23 May 2008 03:24:18 GMT

So its been a good 7 weeks since ive posted. is that good?lol well uhh i got a new computer of my own :), i havent talked to my sister in a month nor have i barley seen her, a big burden recently was removed from my life, and now im just here like a floating duck waiting for school to end. i dont care about regents or testing or blah blah blah because im gonna die soon anyway lol. any way yeah not that much to update on except i get to see becky in july! thank the lord!!!! god im so fucking happy. <3 i love her so much <333

=]

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 15:54:20 GMT

soooooo tonight im throwing my sister a suprise party!
i hope it goes okay. otherwise ill be failure of the year fer sure =\

other wise im really happy.. i guess haha lol uhh yeah i want breakfast

feb.19th?

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 00:41:58 GMT

bowling = fun.
you=not

longest week to ever exsist

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 21:04:06 GMT

and to be perfectly honest.

it kills me so much that im like... barley top 7 for everyone.

i wish i was someones number one.
someone they think of first.for everything.

feb.2

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 20:12:49 GMT

when everything feels like the movies, yeah you bleed just to know your alive.

happy belated one month. i love you

soil,soil

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 23:22:57 GMT

just watched my wildest dreams come true
not one of them invloving you

just watched his wildest dreams come true
not one of them involving you

i was married

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 03:26:02 GMT

so. i asked you why you stopped talking to me today. your responce :idk. i stopped tlaking to everyone.

thats just sad.

hah go get high.your like dead to me

no one else will have me, only you

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 00:42:54 GMT

its kindof scary... being this inlove with someone.Theres been only one other person ive really been this in love with. but as of since july or august after like 5 years i was over it.And now im alittle scared ot be that inlove again.I mean i love the idea of being in love especailly with this person.. but im terrified of putting all of me into it. right now 100% of me is in it, but im just scared that god will hate me and ruin somehitng or make somthin go wrong, and i dont want that to happen.I mean im not going to fuck things up because i wouldnt have fallen in love with them if i thought somehitng would happen. I like... wanna spend the rest of my life with them but idk. Theres just always this thought in the back of my mind and there sholdnt be because we constantly tell eachother we love eachother =]. i loveeee you soooo much if your reading this =].

but yeah idk i just i need to get off my chest how in love i am with them, but its SOOO hard to be put into words.but ilove them more then life itself, even if they ARE mean and DO yel at me =[ jkkkk <3333 =]

<33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

gopwriphgwjrhpp

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 15:45:10 GMT

@#$%^&*()

i took cutie for a ride in my death cab

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 13:16:13 GMT

so ive come to this conclusion, that no matter what happenes and no matter what promisises we make our friend ship will NEVER last.never.but its not like you even care any more =\. I dont get why we just cant talk things out, you know im that type of person car, ask anyone.But like i said i tihnk you dont make the errfort..because you dont care. as long as you have that one other p- no TWO other people in your life your fine.soooo ive come to the conclusion that i dont care about you anymore.You cant stand to see me because i hurt and confuse you.. WHY????HOW????? because you NEVER told me ANYTHING.well thats just blaintleny stupid. its not my fault you dont like me, and the fact we havent tlkaed in lkeee 2 weeks. ummhhhhhhhh deffinitley your fault becase i tihnk just yesterday i tried having a REAL conversation with you and you didnt respond.you stoped caring awhile ago? good.ill stop caring now.

january.23.08

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 23:36:32 GMT

when i needed you most, when i needed a friend . you let me down now, like i let you down then.

ftr i re took my regents today FOR THE 3RD TIME. lets see if i acually pass

im drowning i your letters and im melting from your words

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 21:36:06 GMT

I LOVE BECKY BARBOSAAAAA <3

really though

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 22:37:45 GMT

your.just.playing.a.game

stop looking for happiness; when its sitting right next to you- fortune cookie

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 20:52:44 GMT

wow so this morning and last night were absolutley perfect.

last night me jynelle danny and all of dannys friendsa went into this like abandoned(*) movie theatre with ghosts and stuff and blah blahh.. it was really fun i tinhk we might go again tonight.
we got home around 1 am and i just went to bed.
but this morning okay so we all woke up and jynelle made pancakes for me her danni and my mom. and idk the atmosphere was just so happy, somthin im not used ot in this house.i love danny ,he is serisouly amazing im so glad him and jynelle are together. usually i get attached ot her boy friends, in a brother way and they end up being dicks, i dont tihnk he is one thoiugh. but yeahidk i just felt infinte today it was great <3

trainwreck of the year award

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 16:41:07 GMT

so. as i didnt expect.. well sort of did, things got worse then humanly possible.

on top of that i have the flu

i cant eat

i sleep too much

i dont pay attention and im fallin asleep during class

things are getting so bad.. i prayed to god last night that i wouldnt wake up. and hey what do you know im here.

ill just keep praying

jealousy isnt attractive

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 15:45:38 GMT

blah blah blah same old shitttttt same old drama just a different day.

i wanna get out of this messsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss so badd ><

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 15:55:54 GMT

you may be my best friend. but i never think ive hated you so much in my life. well mabey i have.

konstantine #2

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 13:48:47 GMT

happy thanks giving?

heres to the friends that were alibies.

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 23:37:17 GMT

SOOOOO. its october 29th. the lst tie i wrote a journal was 28 days ago =]. lol yeah imma dork.

so in my last blog i said thati was going to new jersey i did, ad it was good, not what i wanted but...good lol.I also said things were gonna change around halloween, and they might be, im goin through this transitionaing stage..ehh yeah im not gonna get personal lol.

anyway ive been to 2 football games in the past 3 weeks or so, theyre so fun especially with people like tyler and noonan and lina and cherie. there are some assholes there but heyyy loook what school i go to everywhere you turn theres an asshole.

OH soooo at the football game both guys i liked were there and the one i dont know fi i rlly like was talking to me and stuff but the one ive liked for a really long time barley even looked at me.. messed up?heh yeah story of my life :|

nicoles halloween aprty was fun, fucking danced like there was no tommorow, which speaking of i cant go to school tommorow becauser the staff infection is at the school basiclly right next to mine. great huh? everyonesclike noo im not staying home..THEYRE ALL GONAN EGT IT!

yeah anyway. just felt like updating even though no one reads this.

happy october 1st

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 00:05:23 GMT

i know i havent been on much latley.

things.. just things good and bad.

i havent listened to my chem for a month this friday coming up, that will be gerards one month of being married.

no. im not happy for him. i never will be.ever. but ill get over it sometime right?

i have the chance to spend all dayin new jersey on staurday i odnt really wanna go, and i kno somthing is wrong because since 7th grade ive wanted ot go back to new jersey and heres the chance right in my lap, and i dont even wanna go.

things are gonna change around halloween, i garuntee

its the smoke and the dirnks and the smiles that it brings

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 22:55:49 GMT

school sucks.jocks suck.preps suck.hippies suck.friends suck.guys suck.teachers suck.my age sucks.home sucks.music sucks.clothes suck.guys sucks.guys suck.

other then that today was good =]

i didnt get to see the guy i like that much though.

i shouldnt lke him. i KNOW he doesnt like me.

and now it seems that i have found nothing at all.

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 02:15:38 GMT

so i went ot a recording studio today. i was scared shitless, so nervous.

i dont know if i can do it. they ridicul alot.

what ev.i wouldnt make it any way.

and what sucks is i dont have either of my best firends to tell because ones fucking away for the weekend as fucking usual, and the other one hates me.

rawr.

this.sucks.

im going to watch "crazy/beautiful" because carly says it reminds her me and gerard -_-
she said she cried when she watched it.

then tomorow i have to go to the doctors.

what ever.lifesucks.i hope i die, you probably do to.

murderwasthecasetheygaveyou

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 18:16:50 GMT

ive just been a little insecure latley.

im still kindof sad.but im over him.iam. i promise i am.i heard his voice today and i didnt even like it.

i know im done.mabey thats good.

i dont deserve this

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 21:40:17 GMT

so yeah schools really good. i like it.LOL i wish i had portable LJ cuz theres always so much i wanna wirte. but the only thing ill talk about is.. HOW IM FMAOUS lolol

well i was late to my class and i was like walking in the retundra and these group of freshman were like "OMG its that girl from myspace" and they pointed at me and iwas like "wthh"? andi looked behind me but no one was there so i was like uhh okay what ever? and then later i was in class and we were swithcing seats and this guy named rosario was like omg i get to sit next ot the girl form myspace and im like AOKAY WTFFFFF? and then wheni was wlaking to my bu ( which i got on the wrong one btw =[ and had ot walk home) this girl was walking and she was like "OMG AMBER ITS LORI GORE" and i was like okAY srsly double you tee eff. and like.. they were all freshman though so it doens tmatter